e⋅piph⋅a⋅ny
–noun, plural -nies.
a sudden, intuitive perception of or insight into the reality or essential meaning of something, usually initiated by some simple, homely, or commonplace occurrence or experience.
So I am driving in my car on my way to work, and I have a epiphany. I haven't had one this big in a long while. It has everything to do with work and nothing to do with anything else yet with one thought I find a weird peace with the hell that is my job. The hell which I created for myself, by a confluence of events and emotions. Like running into a wall and having the wall stop you dead in your tracks. Although it really doesn't hurt all that much anymore. I feel like things need to filter down, ruminate, saturate to work themselves out in my head like a background process on a computer. It is possible that my impending vacation, my first real vacation from this job in over a year has something to do with it. I would think that I was introspective, maybe not as critically analytical as i could be, usually just critical. I also feel like that I am on the other side of this really bad fog that I have been stuck in for a while, almost three months.
introspection is a bitch but the alternative is worse.
